These lyrics are everything... it's almost like she wrote this song for me :/ lol.

Broken words I whisper to myself
Try to sound lovely, but it doesn't help
When the world is sleeping and I'm still in my chair
Can't close my eyes, I don't wanna know what's in there

And I have better dreams when I'm awake
When I'm in control so I don't shift and shake
The way I do in bed alone, and I'll say...

I wish I wasn't sober
Maybe then I'd have more fun
And I loathe her
She has everything I want
And I hold him
But only in my mind
He never says what I want to hear half the time
I wish someone would know me like the back of their hand
'Cause I need to be loved like that

The word "goodnight" has never scared me more
Please don't leave me, I don't wanna be alone
Tomorrow's not good enough
'Cause I can't breathe right here, right now

Maybe then it wouldn't be so bad
If he could at least stop calling me his "friend"
And I can never set him straight, so I'm sayin'...

I wish I wasn't sober
Maybe then I'd have more fun
And I loathe her
She has everything I want
And I hold him
But only in my mind
He never says what I wanna hear half the time
I wish someone would know me like the back of their hand
'Cause I need to be loved like that
I need to be loved like that

This is how my heart aches at half past midnight these days

I wish I wasn't sober
Maybe then I could have fun
And I loathe her
'Cause she's everything I'm not
And I hold him
But not outside my mind
He never says what I want him to half the time
I wish someone could know me like the back of their hand
'Cause I need to be loved like that
I need to be loved like that
I need to be loved like that

.-

Catrien Maxwell.