I'm pretty sure that every post I've written since around October last year, has had something to do with you. See? do you fucking see it? what you've done to me.

You don't have the right to make me feel like this.

Please, stop it. stop making me feel useless. I don't feel like there is a reason for anything anymore, I know its stupid but...
I feel like because you don't want me.
I don't have a reason to be here anymore.
I don't have a reason to fight.

You're everything to me.

.... and I'm just a bookmark in one of your pages.

It's all for you... Every last bit.

Even the things that hurt me, that things that I swore I'd never do, or say, or feel. 
For you, everything changed . 
and you don't even fucking notice. 

You don't want me to be in love with you?

... Then don't smile at me. Don't wave to me. Don't touch me, or talk to me, or play, or laugh, or feel, or dance, or sing, or ask....
Just disappear, maybe then I'll have a chance of letting go.

I wish I wasn't sober, maybe then I'd have more fun... and I loathe her, she has everything I want... and I hold him, but only in my mind, he never says what I want to hear half the time.

- Caterin Maxwell (original song)

I can't explain it.

The immensity of love that I have fallen in.
Everything about you makes my heart ache for your acceptance.
do you laugh as much with her? does she make you smile that crooked smile?
I wish you could see it,
I wish you would... and feel the same way.