God damn it. I needed that time, I thought he wasn't going to be there! fuck! I had to go into work to collect some money and they said that it was just those two on tonight. so i assumed he wasn't there! but he was staying back late. so i saw him :( it was good, because, he tried to calm me down, he put his hands on me. just a friendly gesture. but... it hurts . now.i just. i cant do this anymore.