I want to go out and get so drunk that I can't remember what I did the next day.
I want to kiss 15 boys.
I want to fall in love with someone so wrong for me and have them love me back.
I want to do a million things I've never done- because I just want to live.
I want to know what it feels like to live life.
I'm not living, I'm not sooking about how numb I am because I'm not living. No, not living is me being scared of all the things that other teenagers do, try, feel.
that I never have.
I'm so afraid that I never will.