"What if we last forever?"
No, No please don't last forever. give me a chance to make you happy. Give me a chance to hold you to my chest and tell you you're beautiful.
Please understand, that I don't want to ruin your perfect relationship, I don't ever want to see you sad- if it meant that if you left her, if you couldn't be w- if that made you sad, then... then I wouldn't take you. I'd never even try. But I truly believe that you would be happy with me.
I... I could be better. please,
please understand. I'll do whatever to myself- change in everyway possible.
Just to have you.
"I'll do whatever to myself - change in everyway possible."
ReplyDeleteI found out later that this was not worth it, in whatever shape or form.
it's hard though, you know? wondering what it might be like if I were different. would it change anything?
ReplyDeleteah. such is life I suppose, and apologies that my entire blog is whiny crap, it must drive artistic writers insane.
thankyou, for the comment anyway, somehow I know that no matter what I do to myself he'll never want me, I'll have to deal with it.
and I will.