Fluorescent.

the light from our torch gave way too our pathway.
the pathway we never knew we would take.
the pathway we chose.
the pathway that was not strong enough to hold our weight.
that pathway that was a fake,
a reflection of the light.
that pathway that fucking broke.

I know we're nothing but human,
but can't we be more?

I just want to let you know.

I realize how love-sick and stupid my blog had become. I used to write poetry.
now its just consistent complaining and sad stuff.
:/
sorry.
I'll try be more poetic.

It will pass.

I wish....

My heart hurts.
I feel like I'm falling apart. every second I spend with you just makes me want you more. 
I had a dream about you last night, we didn't kiss, or sleep together. instead, you just held my hand, and we sat for hours talking.
you told me you wanted to leave, please don't go.
as much as it would be good if you left, good for me.
I don't know what I would do without you. I will miss you so much. you're so amazing.. I wish you would turn around and tell me you feel the same, I wish I was what you wanted.
you're always talking about how beautiful other girls are. I can't take it, I wish you would talk about me like that. I wish I was important enough to you, so you would stay, or hang out with me, or call me. I wish that all the reasons I don't call, hangout, text you were the same as yours. I wish you wanted me. It's getting to a point where it physically hurts, I feel sad because I want you.
thats wrong.
I know.
But i'm falling for you, deeper and deeper.
I want you to want me.
I just want you.

I hate you.

I sat there whilst you talked. listened so acutely to every word you said.
but I was dazed, blocking out what I knew was coming. I hate you.
I hate you for getting in the way of everything.

I remember now,
how it feels too fall.